Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. ~Elizabeth Stone

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

New Babies and New Mamas

My sister just had her first baby a few weeks ago and my mom came to stay with her for the first two weeks to help her out. This week she is on her own and faced with the daunting task of raising a baby. I remember that feeling.

Not really knowing if anything you do is right.

Thinking about how little...that baby is.

Wishing, wishing, WISHING that you could sleep. Or shower. Or eat.

I don't envy her this time. Of the past 19 months I have had with Avery the first few were not my favourite. But if you want to get to the fun part then you have to go through it.

And I love Avery more then I ever thought I could so I guess maybe it's worth it.

I know it is.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Maybe I'll try this again?

Wow, it's been forever since I posted on this blog. Forever.

Today I went in to start setting up my classroom again for the upcoming school year and somehow this year feels different. I can't really figure out why. I've switched grades before. I've revamped huge components of my teaching before. I went back to work early last year when Avery was a baby so I've done that before.

Now really sure. But it feels different.

And, I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. I feel tired. I want to sleep. But I just lie there are sleep eludes me. I hate that.

I think maybe I'll try and post here more often in the coming days. Just a place to unload.

Even if none of you are following or reading anymore...and really why would you? I totally abandoned this blog and you all. But if you are out there, thanks.

I'll try and do better.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Carrot Oatmeal Muffins

Having a baby has made me become a baker! I have been attempting all sorts of recipes lately to see what kinds of new things she will eat. It is important to me that she eat very little processed food while she is still so young so I am trying very hard to make as much of her food as possible.

I am interested in making things that are healthy, tasty and full of veggies! Avery loves baked goods...bread, crackers, goldfish. If it's carbs, she'll eat it! So I figured that if I could squeeze some vegetables into muffins Avery would love them.

I found a recipe I liked on Canadian Living's website.

  • 1-1/2 cups (375 mL) all-purpose flour
  • 1 cup (250 mL) quick-cooking rolled oats, (not instant)
  • 1/2 cup (125 mL) packed brown sugar
  • 1 tbsp baking soda (I changed it to 3/4 tsp  baking soda)
  • 1/2 tsp cinnamon or ginger (I changed it to 1 tsp)
  • 1/4 tsp (1 mL) salt
  • 1 cup (250 mL) milk (I changed it to 1/2 cup milk and 1/2 cup sour cream)
  • 1 egg
  • 1/4 cup (60 mL) vegetable oil (I used canola oil)
  • 1 tsp (5 mL) vanilla
  • 1 carrot, grated
  • 1/2 cup (125 mL) chopped walnuts, (optional)
1. In large bowl, whisk together flour, rolled oats, brown sugar, baking powder, cinnamon and salt. 
2. In separate bowl, whisk together milk, egg, oil and vanilla; pour over dry ingredients. Sprinkle with carrot, and walnuts (if using); stir just until dry ingredients are moistened. Spoon into 12 paper-lined or greased muffin cups. 
3. Bake in centre of 375°F (190°C) oven for about 20 minutes or until cake tester inserted in centre comes out clean. Let cool in pan on rack for 5 minutes. Transfer to racks; let cool completely. (Make-ahead: Store in airtight container for up to 24 hours or wrap individually in plastic wrap and freeze for up to 2 weeks.)

Now I think they turned out great...Avery, however...not so much! She ate it right up when they came out of the oven but since then won't touch it! Oh dear. She is teething so that might be part of it, hopefully soon she'll like them...or another recipe I try.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

A New Day, A New Routine

I want to stand up and applaud all the parents out there who get up every morning and get multiple children to multiple!

I have done two days of dropping off the little one at day care and let me tell hasn't been pretty. We are still working out all the kinks. Someday we'll be smooth sailing but I can pretty confidently say that tomorrow will not be that day.

In other news, Avery's first first birthday party went well and her second first birthday party is coming up this weekend. Pictures to come soon!

Sunday, January 8, 2012

A First Birthday...

Tomorrow is my daughter's first birthday. 365 days. How fast a year goes by. How fast your love can grow and grow.

Tomorrow I will drop my daughter off at dat care for her first full day away from anyone that is related to her by blood.

Tomorrow my daughter will start to really grow up. She will learn things from people who aren't in our family. She will discover other people's opinions. She will make friends.

Tomorrow my daughter will be one year old.

365 days.

It's amazing that in only one short year my entire life has been changed. Changed for the good. Changed for the better. Changed forever.

Tomorrow my baby will really start to grow up.

She's I?

Sunday, January 1, 2012

....ummmm, so....

It's been awhile. It's been a long while. A very long while. Since October 10th while. Sorry. There's not much I can say except that life got busy. Too busy, too crazy and something needed to go. It was this blog. To everyone who supported me and read my writing since I started this little endeavour I am sorry and I am going to to try and do better.

I am not sad that I didn't write during this time, I am proud that I recognized the need to let something go so I could do a good job as a mom, as a wife and as a teacher. But now I am ready to be back and trying to do something for me again. I am not promising miracles. I am not promising everyday but I am promising to try harder.

I read an interesting post today and it got me thinking about how I build some more time into my life for blogging here...have you ever heard of One Little Word? I love this it. I think my friend Brian will be over the moon for it as well.

I have decided that my one little word is going to be...


My baby is 7 days away from turning one year old. I feel like it is going by so fast and I don't want to miss a minute of it. She starts at day care on her first birthday and obviously for the first time since she was born she won't be spending all of her days with my husband or I.

I want to pay attention and be aware and love every moment while we are in it instead of rushing through to the next milestone. So 2012 will be the year of REFLECTION.

....and hopefully more blogging too!

Here's some highlights from our holidays:

Door wreath made by my husband!

Grapevine tree made by my mom.

Avery first Christmas present opening

I love her face here

The best part of the night was the LED flashlight...go figure!

Christmas morning, hanging hour with the puppy.

Dance and Wiggle puppy!

Daddy hugs

Frosty the Snowman jogging suit

More puppy love...Avery is big into hugging these days. I love it!

Big girl lunch!!

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday and all the best in 2012.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Everything I Ever Needed to Know...

... I learned at campfire? It sure seems like it when you read through the lyrics of some of my favourite songs. There's nothing like a good song to teach you a life lesson, eh?

All My Life’s a Circle

All my life’s a circle, sunrise and sundown
The moon rolls through the night time
Till the day break comes around
All my life’s a circle, but I can’t tell you why
The seasons spinning round again
The years keep rolling by.
It seems like I’ve been here before, I can’t remember when
But I got this funny feeling
That we’ll all be back again
There’s no straight lines that make up my life
And all my roads have bends
There’s no clear cut beginnings, and so far no dead ends.
I’ve found you a thousand times, I guess you’ve done the same
But then we’ll lose each other
It’s just like children’s games
As I see you here again, the thought runs through my mind
Our friendships like a circle,
Let’s go round one more time.


Mm, mm, I’d like to linger
Mm, mm, a little longer
Mm, mm, a little longer here with you
Mm, mm, its such a perfect night
Mm, mm, it doesn’t seem quite right
Mm, mm, that it should be my last with you
Mm, mm, and come December
Mm, mm, I will remember
Mm, mm, our campfire bright and friendships true
Mm, mm, and as the years go by
Mm, mm, I’ll think you you and sigh
Mm, mm, this is goodnight and not goodbye
Frog Kissin'

Do you remember in the fairy tale, how the wicked witches spell
Turned the handsome prince to a toad?
By the power of a potion, she handed him the notion
He was lower than the dirt in the road.
And though she left him green and warted, her evil plans were thwarted
Their chanced to happen by a young miss
Who inspite of his complexion, offered him affection
And broke the wicked curse with her kiss

So if you've never been frog kissing
Then you don't know what you've been missin',
There's a wealth of opportunity under each and every log.
And if you've never been charm-breakin',
Then you've never been handsome prince makin'.
You've got to slow down, turn around, bend down,
Kiss you a frog!
Once upon a time ago, I was down and feelin' low
Like a lonely frog in a pond
My life was just a joke, and I was just about to croak
Cuz I'd be zapped by life's wicked wand.
But in the depths of my depression, there came a true expression
Of love from a person so sweet.
She gave me warm fuzzy feelings, feelings that were healin'
And she knocked me off my little webbed feet.
There's a happy-ever-after-land, deep in the heart of man
Where a prince and princess abides.
But all we get are glimpses, of the happy prince or princess
'Cauce they're covered with a green warty hide.
Though they're full of life's potential, they're lacking one essential
To enable them to shine like a star.
That's a handsome guy or missus, to smother them with kisses
And love them just the way that they are.
That's the secret of frog kissing
You can do it too if you'll just listen
There's a wealth of opportunity under each and every log.
That's the secret of charm-breakin',
That's the secret of handsome prince makin'.
You've got to slow down, turn around, bend down,
Kiss you a...
You've got to slow down, turn around, bend down,
Kiss you a...
You've got to slow down, turn around, bend down,
Kiss you a frog!

Thanksgiving..Canadian Style

I am currently home right now for Thanksgiving. We came down to my parent's place on Saturday morning and have had a busy weekend of eating, visiting friends and mostly just seeing family. My cousin had a baby girl a few weeks ago and we were able to get together this weekend and meet the baby for the first time. We also celebrated a long time family friend's 40th anniversary (wow...that's a long time).

As I write this I am lounging in my parent's study as my mom watches some Tv and recovers from making us a delicious meal last night. The baby is napping and my husband and dad are playing golf. All in all it's been a pretty great weekend. Although the drive is pretty long to get here (3.5 hours + stops) it's always worth the trip.

But seeing family is always worth the trip I'd say.

Last Words...

Thinking is easy, acting is difficult, and to put one's thoughts into action is the most difficult thing in the world.

~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe