Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. ~Elizabeth Stone

Saturday, November 27, 2010

What a Week....

Whew! I made it through. Work and work related activities seem to be getting much more difficult the bigger I get. LOL I must say that I am really looking forward to the baby being here and starting a new chapter in my life.

I have been having tonnes of baby dreams as well, nothing concrete or that I really remember when I wake up I just know that my baby was in the dream. My husband is getting excited too, but I think his excitement is tinged with a little more anxiety than mine. He's never really been around babies and has never changed a diaper! It's going to be an adventure.

Today we are heading out the the One of a Kind Show here in in Toronto. In you are in the area and can make it over the next few weeks it's pretty amazing. Sort of like Etsy.com but in real life instead of online. Here's the website. It is also held in Vancouver, Chicago and New York but I am not sure of the dates of those shows. I am hoping to get some cute baby stuff (naturally) and maybe a few personal things (bring on the purses) and finish up my Christmas shopping.

I have heard back from the photographer that our maternity photos will be ready this week, plus the nursery is almost finished.....YEAH! This means that very soon I will be able to share the pictures with y'all. Can't wait.

I hope everyone has a great weekend planned with lots to do or nothing to do depending on what you like.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Love/Hate

I seem to have developed a love/hate relationship with food during my pregnancy, although I am pretty sure I had a similar relationship before I got pregnant, just on a smaller scale. I have been trying hard to eat all the things I am supposed to eat to have a healthy baby. I have also been trying to avoid all the things that I am not supposed to eat. But I must admit, I hate thinking about what I am going to eat all the time. I hate being hungry (and thirsty all the time).

I have never been a very big meat eater. I didn't start until I was almost 9 and then I was a vegetarian for most of my teen years. Not for any really ethical reason, I would get sick when I ate meat as a child and then never really developed a taste for it. I have always done what I could to get protein during the day but never really gave it all that much thought. Now I feel very guilty if I haven't had protein at every meal, but at the same time I have been feeling an aversion to meat due to pregnancy.

This whole pregnancy thing is a head-spinner.

I am worried that I will pass on this pickiness to my child. What if she is a picky eater like me?

Cooking is another thing that I have no interest in lately. I really need to work on planning ahead and having the ingredients ready to go each day. When I get home from work I feel no compunction to start cooking anything and really just want to sit down. Perhaps I am not taking advantage of my crock pot as I should be. Perhaps a personal chef to make all the decisions is the answer?

Saturday, November 20, 2010

One Track Mind

People in my family have started to ask me what I would like for Christmas, however with the baby coming all I can think of is baby stuff (well, mostly). I would love a baby sling from Etsy like this one.

I would also LOVE to get this little hat and bootie set for when we have the baby and the photographer comes to do the newborn photos.  Speaking of photos, I am very excited to get our maternity photos back!!

I registered for this glider and ottoman for the nursery, can you imagine how comfy it is...but alas it was not purchased and it is not in our budget.

Purses. I love them. Love. Them.  I haven't bought a new one in awhile because it doesn't really seem like a justified cost when the baby is on her way. But I do like them.

Books. Always.

A pedicure. Le sigh.

What's on your list? And have you started shopping for others yet?

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Time is Running Out

In less than 2 months (hopefully) I will have a baby in my arms (most likely as I am posting to my blog). It's hard to believe that 9 months of wishes and hopes can go by so quickly. I only have 5 weeks left of work, and those will fly by as the holidays approach, report cards go home and parent interviews take place. I will have to start packing up my classroom and saying good bye to new colleagues and friends.

The nursery is already 95% completed.

We had maternity photos taken on the weekend.

I have had two wonderful baby showers and received heaps of fabulous baby gifts.

The parenting advice continues to roll in (however unwanted it is).

... and I find my thoughts straying to who and what my baby will be. My first thoughts are always of who she will look like and be like. I am hoping she inherits my husband curly, red hair. He hopes she will be small like me. I hope she will have his teeth (no need for braces there). He hopes she is a reader like me.

Then I tend to stray over to who she will grow into. I hope she will be someone who fights against injustice. Who stands up for others. Who volunteers because she wants to. I think about the traditions I want to have in our family...buying a gift from the World Vision Gift Catalogue each Christmas in place of receiving a gift ourselves. Donating and volunteering together in a food bank. Travelling to build a school in Africa. Millions of trips to the library to soak up all the knowledge that we can.

The closer we get, the faster I want her to be here. I can't wait to meet her, this baby of mine.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Did you remember to remember?



Did you take time to remember?

I spent a lot of time over the past few weeks talking about Remembrance Day and sacrifice with my students. I was a little unprepared for how little they really knew about why we have Remembrance Day and what it all symbolizes but I was overjoyed by their enthusiasm. There was many an instance when they didn't want to stop talking about it, learning more about it, and genuinely connecting to the sacrifice made by so many for our freedoms.

We spent time reading In Flander's Field. We looked at pictures from the 2 world wars, and discussed what people's lives were like then. We created a wreath out of our hand prints with personal messages of  why it is important to take time to remember. On Thursday, November 11th, Remembrance Day we attended our school-wide assembly and my students were completely engaged in the ceremony. They were silent for almost an hour. They soaked it all in. Then we wrote thank you letters to the soldiers.


Here's a little of what my students had to say (I will leave all spelling and grammar as written by the students... it's just cuter that way)...

"I hoped you survived in the 1st and 2nd world war. If the war was forever I would be crying as long as the war gose on. I am super thankful that you soldiers risk your lives for our lives. I hope your train ride wasn't that bumby."


"Dear soldier Thank you for giving freedom to our land. We will try to keep that freedom you have given us. Thank you for leaving your familys Just to bring freedom to our land."


"Hello, my name is **** I am 9 years old. I am writing to you on behalf of all the world to thank you on what you have done for us. You and the army fought for our freedom and succeded."


"Thank you for leaving your family and going to war. I know that if I was going to be a soldier, you would be my role model by saving the world in otherways besides war, thank you. Thank you for not stopping when you were tired or hungry."


"Dear soldier since you sacrificed your self I'll like to tell you how it's going now a days, and it is great and i'm a very safe pearson same as everyone else. So thank you for every thing you did for us."


"I am writing this letter because I want to say thank you for sacrificing your live you live to give us peace and freedom, being brave for jumping out of your boat and strigh away fighting and I also want to say thank you because you did something to save other people but not even saving your self."


"My name is **** and I am in grade 4.  I am very appreachiated for what you have done. I feel sorry for you and wish wars never happened. Thank for giving Canada freedom and peace."


...what is there to say after all that?

Each class is my school is working on creating a service learning project based on the interests of the students. I think I am going to look into basing our class' project on learning more about Canadian peacekeepers and maybe even do a letter writing project to send over to the soldiers. I am pretty sure my class would love it.





Thursday, November 4, 2010

When Life Throws You Lemons....

why does it seem as though the whole lemon tree comes with it?


A friend posted today about a recent rash of bad news (illness, death, sadness) that his family has been dealing with is a short amount of time and it got me wondering. Why do bad things seem to happen in threes (or more) so very often?


My own family had a run in with this very phenomenon a few years ago when I lost 4 family in less than 4 months (2 within 7 days of each other) and it rocked me to my very core. I know I am not the same person I was then. I see the world a little different. I try to balance my family and work a little better. I put more of myself into the things I am passionate about. But something like that never really leaves you.

There are moments still when I catch myself on the verge of tears. Or crying with my fellow family members. We have been able to grow and move on and share many laughs in the wake of that awful time but I don't think any of us are the same people we were before it all happened.

So why does the universe seem to test us in this way? Is it to see how much we can handle before we break? Is it to let us learn just how strong we really are? Is it totally random and meaningless?

I know that I don't have the answers to those questions (and many more) but I do know that trials like these do show you the strength of a family. The strength of love. The importance of hugs and "I love you's". And we often come out the other side knowing ourselves a whole lot better.

Do you think good things happen in a sequence as well? That we just don't notice when a random string of good times pop into our daily routines? I think so. I am fairly sure that just as bad things happen in threes, good things happen in threes, fours, fives....etc. We just don't take the time to celebrate them, notice them, be thankful for them as much as we should. Often, these good things don't bring our lives to a crashing halt the way the bad does, either. The bad forces us to stop and recognize it. The good flows seamlessly into our consciousness.

So to anyone out there struggling through please know that it does indeed get better. Time is the ultimate medicine and as low as you are right now, you will bounce up again. In the meantime, if you need someone to talk to....I am here.

Have You Seen This? You Should.

 This video is amazing and such a strong showing of support. Please watch and share with everyone you know!

Watch the video!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Pumpkin in the Oven

Wordless Wednesday- Here is my version of a Halloween costume this year. Oh, the things you do when you teach Grade 4 instead of Grade 8.


Happy Wednesday...we are almost there (to the weekend I mean. The baby is till like 2 months away!)

Monday, November 1, 2010

Advice-Adschmice

I am reaching that stage in my pregnancy when everyone feels that I need their advice. It goes something like this;

"Oh, this is your first child? Are you ready for your entire life to change?"

"You know nothing will ever be the same, right?"

"You might as well give up reading now because you won't have time to read anymore." (Really, never? I find that hard to believe.)

"It's important to get used to not having things done the way you like because you'll be too tired and your husband will do things his way and you'll just be happy about it."

Etc

Etc

Etc

Now, I have never been a mom, nor (obviously) had a child of my own...but I once was a child and I can tell you for a fact that my mom read all the time. My mom gets stuff done the way she wants in her house.

I know things will be different but I refuse to lose my entire identity because I am becoming a mom. I will most definitely put my child first, however, there will be time for me to read. There will be time for me to make sure things are done the way I like.

I don't think totally giving up on myself and who I am as a person is a very good example for my child and I refuse to do it.

Last Words...

Thinking is easy, acting is difficult, and to put one's thoughts into action is the most difficult thing in the world.

~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe