Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body. ~Elizabeth Stone

Friday, August 26, 2011

Everybody's Gotta Have a Friend

Have you ever had a friend that was so like you that sometimes it felt like you were the same person? Avery has a friend just like that.





Thursday, August 25, 2011

The Great Cucumber Standoff of 2011

Today it was a battle. The suspense was a killer. Who would win? What would happen? I was on pins and needles.

Here's how it all went down...Avery had a cucumber. Kahne wanted it. Let the standoff begin.




The final decision....Avery is the winner!!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Love is better than anger...

Today is a sad day for all Canadians and for the world. One of the hardest working men in Canada has lost his battle to cancer.

My friends, love is better than anger. Hope is better than fear. Optimism is better than despair. So let us be loving, hopeful and optimistic. And we’ll change the world.
~ Jack Layton

In an Open Letter to Canadians Jack left us with his final words. A call to stay positive and to continue fighting to make Canada, and the world a better place. It is something that everyone, not just his supporters, should read and take to heart. Jack was a fighter for all. He fought for the poor and disadvantage. He fought for seniors. He fought for education. He fought to make the world a better place.

As I have read in many place already today, this is a sentiment I must echo...he was the best Prime Minister we never had.

To read more about Jack go here and here, and here.

Le Bon Jack...you will be greatly missed.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

So Whatcha Been Doin'?

Life has been busy!! Busy Busy Busy!

Summer is coming to a close which means that I only have 2 weeks left of my mat leave and being home with my baby everyday. I am starting to plan for the upcoming school year but am also procrastinating it at the same time. It's almost like if I don't get stuff ready then the time won't go by...silly I know! But truth be told the school year is on my mind a lot and I have started to type stuff up and get read to go back...a little sad, and a little excited.

When I think back on this summer the best memory will be the time we spent at the cottage. I think that was a huge turning point for Avery has she grew so much in the time that we were there and has become such a grown up baby in the weeks we have been home since going. I know it's been forever but here are some pictures of our time at the cottage...


Bowl on my head....funny baby!



First ever fever...sad baby.


Mom and baby time


Hanging with aunty and Simon


Look at my hat!


Let's go to the beach with Papa





Happy baby!




Swimming baby!


Happy to be done swimming!



Hanging with the grandparents


I love my little pool!



Tired baby.

I just love her. A lot.

In other news, Friday was my birthday and I made the peanut butter chocolate pie that I posted about last week as my "birthday cake". SB also made it after reading the blog post and we decided to share our thoughts. I liked the pie but found it a little rich... also I made it the day of because the recipe said it would set in three hours...or overnight. Overnight is better. Next time I think I might half the sweetened condensed milk and leave out the layer of melted chocolate in the crust, but overall it was delicious. I highly recommend it!




Thursday, August 18, 2011

for mikey - In Jennie's Kitchen

for mikey - In Jennie's Kitchen

I love peanut butter. I love chocolate. I love my husband. Not in that order.

Reading this blog post of a woman who recently lost her husband was just heartbreaking. I can't help by think of her and her children.

She has asked that people make this pie in memory of her husband, Mikey.

Done.

Thoughts About Getting Older...and Maybe Wiser? Who Knows!

Tomorrow I will turn 32 years old. What an unimportant number. Nothing special happens at 32. It's not a big milestone. There are no surprise parties. It's just a random number on the way to.... wherever.

I don't feel 32. I'm not even really sure what 32 is supposed to  feel like? Look like? Meh.

I'm pretty sure I don't look 32 since most people are shocked that I am a teacher, can drive, am allowed in rated R movies...etc. I gather from this I look young? Whatever that's worth. I must say the shock seems to be wearing off slowly. I get carded less at restaurants and the LCBO. Parents don't look as concerned all the time that I have been allowed to teach their children.

And now I have a baby...boy that'll make you grow up fast. Although I must admit that I have always felt like I was one of those people who was/is pretty grown up for their age. Not that I don't enjoy some good imagination or can't have fun with my little ones at school but I can also see the responsibility involved in life without whining about it.

32 years, eh.

Hmmm.

That's really all I have to say about that.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Mom Hair, Mom Jeans...Mom Van?

Just kidding...I am not wearing mom jeans and we are not getting a van! But I do want a new do. I grew my hair out from an angled bob when I found out I was pregnant because I knew I would want a ponytail while pregnant and during the first crazy, hectic months...but now that I am a few weeks away from going back to work and am tired of always having a ponytail I am thinking of something new.

Here is a recent picture of me:


My hair is straight...we're talking I can let it air dry and not use a straightener straight. STRAIGHT.

I am not opposed to doing my hair everyday but I want something quick. It takes about 30 minutes to blow it dry and I don't think I am willing to do that every morning anymore especially come January when I will have to get Avery up and ready and off to daycare!

I am also tire of Avery pulling it!

Here's what I am thinking of...


Not too short to start, kind of a starter short do? Thoughts... I do think that I quickly feel that that is a do with no style at all and that will bug me.

There is also this...




My husband is in favour of this look...



The good and bad news is that my appointment is on Saturday...so I'm going to have to decide soon and live with it!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Took the words right out of my mouth...

Today I read a blog post by a good friend of mine, SB. It was like she reached into my head and could see my thoughts...head on over here if you want to check it out.

I will be the first to admit that I am not the most easygoing person. I like to have my plans made in advance. I like to know how things are going to work. I get very nervous when I do things for the first time. I don't like doing things wrong. Mix all this together and you get a stressed out new mom.

When I was pregnant with Avery the book The Baby Whisperer was recommended to me because my cousin had had so much success with it. To be perfectly honest, I felt that I had to use the book otherwise too many comparisons would be made and that without it I wouldn't be seen as good a mom as my cousin.

I like that the author attempts to give practical advice and provide a structure for new moms, however she consistently states that unless you are able to follow her outlines you are "accidentally parenting". If this is happening you are basically setting your child up to fail at life...at least that's how it feels when you are reading this book and not finding any success with the methods in it. Mix that with the crazy hormones flying through a new mom and you have a recipe for disaster.

I must admit that the sleep strategies outlined in the book have been successful for us. The Shush-Pat and the Pick Up-Put Down have consistently worked. That being said, I also have an "angel baby" who rarely (and I mean rarely) cries...so who really knows if it's the book or just Avery? The E.A.S.Y routine for the day has just started working for us but Avery still eats every 3 hours so again I am doing that part wrong.

Le sigh.

After reading SB's post I felt much better knowing that I am not the only mom out there who isn't a "baby whisperer". Isn't it nice to know you aren't alone? It's especially nice because here I am 7 months in and I will still crack open the book at times, attempt something and then stress out when it doesn't work. Meanwhile, I am have been caring for my baby for 7 months and it's all worked out so far.

In other news.....my husband takes over baby duty in 4 weeks and I go back to work. I will have even less control than I do over Avery's schedule because let's be honest, she controls her schedule! I do feel like we have reached a place where things are working well and I am getting much better at going with the flow of things. But every once in awhile I start to lose my mind again....it's just sad really.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Again...seriously??

It seems like every few weeks I am back here, in this very same place. Stressed out. Worried. Tired? Confused? What's all the fuss about you ask? Baby sleep routines, napping, feeding...you name it. I seem to end up back here very few weeks or so wondering if I am doing it right, do I need to change things? It's exhausting and at times I feel counterproductive. I think some of my worry stems from the fact that I want things to be in place for when my husband takes over in September, not because I don't think he can figure it out on his own...but because...well, I don't know really.

I don't want to say that I am worried that he won't do it as well as I do because goodness knows, I questions everything I do all the time anyway. And I know he will do it differently than me and that's okay too...it's hard to actually pin point what my worry is. I think I want Avery to get the best of everything, always. The best of the her naps. The best of her feeds. The best of her playtime. I worry when it seems like things aren't going as well as they could be. I really do, a lot.

I wish I could be a more go with the flow mom, as my mom told me last week "I just fed you when you were hungry."

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What a thought right? I'm sure it applies to sleep too, I napped when I was tired. Sometimes I think that all the books and websites just create more stress and worry. I survived my babyhood without my mom having anything at her disposal in terms of the massive of amounts of information on the internet and in bookstores today. I am a pretty okay person I like to think!

Maybe going back to work and having other things to worry about is the best thing for me?

Decompression

Well, it has taken us a few days but I think we have finally settled back into our routine after two wonderful weeks at the cottage. We enjoyed our time with my parents, friends, going to the beach, shopping and most of all just relaxing. The saddest part of being home from the cottage means that the summer is now half over and I am that much closer to returning to work. I am finding that the closer we get to September the harder I am finding the idea of leaving my baby everyday. I know that it is the best thing for me career-wise, I am too much of a control freak to let someone else start my classroom. I know that Avery will be more than fine staying home with her dad, and I know my husband is looking forward to spending so much time with the baby, but.....

What seems like a great idea in some moments seems like a horrible idea in others!

I am lucky though because I will have every summer to spend with my baby and lots of moms don't get that, many moms don't even get the luxury of the eight months I have been able to spend with her. I am just so afraid of missing something, which is silly because of course I will. I will miss stuff when she goes to school too, when she leaves home, when she is with her friends, etc. Hopefully though we can create a close enough relationship that she will want to come back and share it with me after the fact. Like I do with my mom.

I am looking forward to seeing her bright smile everyday when I come home from work and I know that having her at home will make me less of a workaholic. I will be forced to learn some balance....the big buzz word in schools. Administrators are often talking about how important it is for us to have balance because so much of our work has to go home with us. This year will be the first test of that for me. Before I have had my evenings free to mark and plan as much as I wanted but now I will want to spend all that time with my baby girl. It's going to be interesting to say the least.

Last Words...

Thinking is easy, acting is difficult, and to put one's thoughts into action is the most difficult thing in the world.

~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe