It seems like every few weeks I am back here, in this very same place. Stressed out. Worried. Tired? Confused? What's all the fuss about you ask? Baby sleep routines, napping, feeding...you name it. I seem to end up back here very few weeks or so wondering if I am doing it right, do I need to change things? It's exhausting and at times I feel counterproductive. I think some of my worry stems from the fact that I want things to be in place for when my husband takes over in September, not because I don't think he can figure it out on his own...but because...well, I don't know really.
I don't want to say that I am worried that he won't do it as well as I do because goodness knows, I questions everything I do all the time anyway. And I know he will do it differently than me and that's okay too...it's hard to actually pin point what my worry is. I think I want Avery to get the best of everything, always. The best of the her naps. The best of her feeds. The best of her playtime. I worry when it seems like things aren't going as well as they could be. I really do, a lot.
I wish I could be a more go with the flow mom, as my mom told me last week "I just fed you when you were hungry."
What a thought right? I'm sure it applies to sleep too, I napped when I was tired. Sometimes I think that all the books and websites just create more stress and worry. I survived my babyhood without my mom having anything at her disposal in terms of the massive of amounts of information on the internet and in bookstores today. I am a pretty okay person I like to think!
Maybe going back to work and having other things to worry about is the best thing for me?